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THIS has to be the most adorable entry yet *dies*.

now — TRUE OTP3: MASA + BEER + LAUNDRY = WIN XDDDD. 

i really love how down-to-earth, spazzy he is. like he’s always *___* at his environment and at everything he does, ahaha. mostly at the simplest things! i hope he’d never change…!

been so tired, so i wasn’t able to think deeply on my ultimate personal Masa playlist and post about it as promised^^;;. so…

anyway. i don’t normally do happy!happy!positivity!pop! songs. but when it’s MASA doing it… somehow i couldn’t resist.

not just because i liked him before he even delved deeper into singing, but because… i feel his sincerity? the trueness of his happiness and hope and feelings and positive outlook on life, even if just through his voice. maybe it’s his voice quality, i dunno — basically it’s just so infectious. and his improvement (and experimentation) per album, is really*____*! it feels like you are growing with him, as an artist.

true, he may not be the type who could hit the highest octaves as of the moment, and his “voice personality” may be bleh for some, but the feelings he could communicate through his songs, as true and as honest as how he conducts himself in real life, is actually more than awesome and commendable — not many artists could actually do that!

so right now, i think he’s the only happy!positivity!pop! artist i can tolerate ahaha XD. (i also love it that he’s more into the poprock side, and he also does some angst songs — some of those are hidden into an upbeat melody though. i find i like that combination =3)

…it’s so hard choosing the songs >__<;;!! but, i think, through very very painful choosing, i think these are mainly the songs (FOR NOW ahaha) that would never leave my ipod XDDD;; (not necessarily in order of preference! though i tried to put it that way):

1. Sun will shine away (single ver.) (i think the musicality of this has more energy and more… bite? idk really. and… Canon D dur*___*. not ever since Hisashi of Glay performed this that i heard a version of Canon that “biting’” X3. and it’s one of my “wake up”/motivational songs — the song that mainly pushed me on those first few months at that job i really hate ahaha )
2. Two of Us (this song is very memorable to me. not just because of what had happened on stage, but because of the totality of the song itself. like, guhhh BEAUTIFUL. somehow sometimes it’s painful to listen to, just because it brings a flood of memories… sentimental, much XD? hidden in an upbeat song… I LOVE IT (and somehow i can’t help but think of Ba-chon??? ahahahXD))
3. Dancing follow me (1st Live STAND UP! ver.) (because i had always liked live versions of stuff. it’s because of the raw energy, and the slight modifications the artists make either wittingly or unwittingly on their songs and performance…)
4. Your Story (one VERY inspiring song. with one very inspiring video too! it’s a story in itself, about making your own story. it’s actually one of my motivational songs XD… i just remember this song, and i remember the path i’m supposed to take in life — i’m serious!)
5. 歩いて帰ろう　(for all its brightness, this is a song that speaks seriously about “walking in the truth”. it took me that long before i actually ripped this for myself, but the melody had reverberated through my memories, and even more when i finally learned of its actual meaning and because it so applies to my current situation alsdjldsjfldsjfdsflssdkl^^;;;…)
6. Epiphany (from his Altar Boyz performance… um… don’t ask how i got this *embarrassed*. but i think Masa playing as Mark was really effective and a very good choice for this kind of song. because this is a song about strength, and going through the odds despite the loneliness of walking one’s belief — SO Masa ahaha in his secret, darkest times ^^;;. i actually wibbled in the end that Masa admitted that Mark was a lot stronger than him in terms of walking his faith though playing Mark was omfgsodifficult! for him though difficulty didn’t really show onstage ahaha, and he learned a lot from Mark!)
7. 涙から聴こえた歌 (ok ok, this really struck the angsty, sappy side of me ahaha;__^;;. and i think this is the one song that is even better performed acoustic… but i think a lot of people would actually cry at the sheer emotionality of that kind of performance with this song ahaha^^;;. watching a shade of Masa singing an emotional song at Altar Boyz, i feel that just a little more and if he decides to he can actually move people to tears with just a song ahaha^^;;;)
8. Altar Boyz Remix (the medley at the end of the show… um… once again don’t ask how i got this ahaha^^;;. but having listened to it over and over, and having read the actual English derivation of some songs, i was just like akldjflksdhfdsfldsjfldsklds at the actual lines Masa had actually sang center-stage at the “Rhythm in Me” part. like, omfgalkjfdlsfsdfaslhdahdlahdahahahahahaXDDDDD. i really thought at the play i was hearing things because of my poor japanese understanding, BUT NO. ahahahahahaXDDDDD^^;;;. and the sheer energy and chemistry of the boys… alksdlfdslkfldsflsefsld OMG I MISS THEM I WANT TO WATCH THEM AGAIN…!)
9. START (single ver.) (the way this song seems to “climb”… asdhfdshfldsjdls)
10. Alex (omg the BEER SONG so EPIC AHAHAHAHAXDDD. alcoholism immortalized ahahaha *i’m still mourning the fact that i can’t purchase the Cheers!! mug, or else it would have been SO immortalized for me ahaha^^;;; and the “kampai!” parts… PRICELESS ahahaha. i suddenly want my Sapporo beer… though i really can’t shake off the image of those hula girls at the densha =___=;;;)
11. Shooting Star
12. Paradiso (omg this song is so sexysadupbeattears at the same time. as inarikami said, the “Two of Us” of the Cheers!! album)
13. Flower bud
14. Overture 934 (ok, no Masa voice really, but… 934? what does 934 mean? has it actually been really really targeted that March 4, 2009 [09.3.4, as in the MMV footnote] be the actual album release??  9+3+4=16. 1+6=7=lucky number XD!)
15. 歩き出せ (the addicting guitar riff at the start… and the message of the song X3!)
16. ペテンシだ！何とでもいいえ。 (D1 song of course. YES. w/ Ba-chon)
17. Depend on me … Rikkai D1 Edition (best edition ever. i’m biased, i know ahahaha. but you can just feel the dynamics and the chemistry and the love here specially at the crosstalk part ahaha)

trailing close!:

• START (album ver.) (i honestly can’t hear much difference from the single version, though single version seems to have more “bite” and this is the more “toned down” version. though not to the point of “let’s chill!” of the album version of “Sun will shine away”)
• あの空へ (hope, dreams, and all the good stuff! for some reason i’m also reminded of Yuta^^;;…)
  
• Dancing follow me (album ver.)
• Seven Colors (the most experimental song at this album, i think. i actually like that Masa played with his voice here XD. mostly i think now this is a statement at the eccentricity of Masa’s image XDD in the album. and i’m somehow reminded of the Foo Fighters’ “Transistor”(?) must be the voice warp parts. though admittedly at first it was =___= for me and i liked 輝く空の下 more, but this song kind of grew on me ahaha).

and… this post is actually… so belated. this post was originally created March 14 ahaha. i’m only editing it now ahahaha. at first listen admittedly i had 1-2 songs that i was =___= a bit at Cheers!!, but at 2nd, 3rd, infinity listen i SO loved it already in its totality (that i ripped it all ahaha^^;;;. wouldn’t want my cd player damaging my beloved cd with repeated play aklsdklsflkdsfdlshfdslkhfdls)

and about that Buck-Tick x Masa crossover through Mona Lisa…

basically, all i would need now is the 2STEPS!! DVD and maybe a clip of Masa doing (his own version? of) the memorable, albeit already too classic, move of this girl from L’Arc~en~Ciel’s Heaven’s Drive video:
 

and my visions of world-domination creativity sleeplessness would be complete >XDDD.

1. finally! today:

alsdkdsklfjdks i didn’t realize that the Canon was that small.
and Gackt*____*. i’ve always wanted to buy the limited version of this single (because of the epic dvd with it!)
and… Vassalord*_____*. well — everything i’ve read so far! but the extras with it… are really a surprise*___*♥♥♥.

2. and, yesterday:

alskfhslkdfhdlkshfldshfldsh I’M STILL FLAILING NOW BECAUSE OF EXTREME HAPPINESS. though, admittedly, i spent the whole day today encoding Buck-Tick’s Mona Lisa BGV from their Akuma to Freud: Climax Together DVD, just to compare codecs. But still…! this feeling of happiness and giddiness i have spent in listening to the album yesterday… just won’t go away! i’m really dying to listen to it again! (but, alas! my pc is not that powerful and i only have one disc player ahaha >__<).
ah… i still have to gush more about this album tomorrow. and my semi-final Masa favorite playlist =3

3. um. as i mentioned above. what i’ve been doing today:

left is the original according to my PowerDVD, next is Xvid, then h264. it’s not noticeable difference as PS had done further compression through PNG >.<, but being too critical on video quality (the fault of being a film major >.<;;;), there’s the issue of more artefacts at Xvid…
looks like h264 is the way to go.
at least from the Aimersoft rip. i also tried Total Video Converter’s DivX50, Lossless HUFYUV avi, Lossless Rawvideo avi. but Quicktime couldn’t play the Lossless ones, so i couldn’t do a comparison >__<;;.
why Mona Lisa? aside from liking this BGV version, i actually have… plans. XD. and it’s… Masa related. to be explained soon…!

4. alfjdslfjdslfdlsjfk I SAW A SALE OF A LIMITED VERSION OF LONGINUS. AND MONA LISA OVERDRIVE ~XANADU~. AND TENSHI NO REVOLVER. OMG. wantingwantingwanting! (but… no money…. *cringe*)

wanting stuff i couldn’t buy yet, being in trouble with amortizations, being in trouble at work, craving alcohol, while listening to/remembering Masa and his album and daydreaming — strangely these are moments when i genuinely feel alive.

5. i realize i possibly couldn’t be a seiyuu, because work is saying my voice is so “no smile”. or, technically, flat. what.
(i’m starting to believe this is one of the reasons why i’m most of the time misunderstood. -__-. what can i do??)

6. kinda related to above — i went to the doctor today.

i noticed these past few weeks my energy level’s been dropping quite drastically, that i was actually unable to go to work yesterday >__<. i’m actually kind of alarmed now. and it feels like it’s not just due to the heat. (i’m actually surprised i’m not getting sick yet, because usually my “getting sick” time is this time of the year — or is it around May? — when the temperature drops drastically. and considering too that just a few weeks ago i came back from a very cold country to this shock of a heatwave here…)
though i’m really adverse to the idea of having to resort to taking medication just to fix my body, i think i really need help now ~___~.
but what could be the cure to “extreme weariness” anyway???

…doctor says i’m nearing over-fatigue and anemia already @__@. uh.

7. i really want to study Latin officially. and begin with the Japanese as well. i think it’s possible. but again, no money >___<…

…i’m procrastinating >.<;;;. i still have to do some work! it’s really been a while since i edited anything again. and, a little cash awaits, so… yosh! i’ll try not to let down those students(>o<)o!

ok! starting today, i’ll be documenting my (first) experiences from my whirlwind trip to Japan XDD. though non-chronological. just so i could remember… and look forward to going back there in the future ^O^/! that… is my new life goal ^O^/! and also, touch Masa by the time I get back there aldkjflsdjfldsjfl XDDDDD.

i think i love keitai already^^;;;. aside from… i’m really looking to replace my S700i already ;^;.

anywhere you can go, you can find lots of models. and lots of shops. like… it’s almost a sidewalk stand thing XD.

the bleh thing about it though is, aside from almost all keitai looking exactly alike (like… they’re all of the rectangular clamshell kind @__@;;;), you cannot simply buy one and use it (so unlike here, that you can simply buy any model you want, buy a separate sim card, pop that in and you have a choice for prepaid card or postpaid). all keitai bought is mandated by law to immediately come with a subscription to a certain network (sim cards locked to a certain network too). also, some models seem to be made exclusively for only a specific network (like models in the Softbank network most likely do not carry the models in DoCoMo).

for my stay there just a precaution just in case i get lost and my parents insisting to have tags on me =___=, i rented from the JAL airport this keitai subscribed to the DoCoMo network.

( this is just the first layer… )

as per previous post, i’m actually lusting for Canon 50D now instead of the previous 40D >___<. and, for point and shoot times, maybe a Panasonic DMZ-LZ8 if on a tight budget or for slim maybe a Canon Ixus 90 IS or Panasonic DMC-FX37 or, if desperate, a Nikon Coolpix S210 (er… really looking for something that works really well on low-light conditions >.<…)

…i wish. because due to the amortizations issue, i think i wouldn’t be able to spend on anything for… maybe.. the whole year >___< (Pado, wait for me ;^;…)

anyway. these are the things so far that make me happy!:

1.
came with a mousepad =3. to be used in a future laptop then…!

2. this edition of Hero Vision must be the next best thing to that Baba x Masa crosstalk ever X3!:

..Papa!

( this is just the first layer… )

1. it’s so hot ;^;

2. i still have no response to the “let’s migrate go to Canada!” emails. also to the phone calls. i feel lazy. i partly blame the heat. maybe later. when i’m drunk and i’m ready to have my mood spoiled.

3. in connection to #2, i quote, from the Art of War, “Know your enemy (after knowing yourself).”

4. BUCK-TICK’s Long Distance Call… ;^; and i got a sudden inspiration — so want to make a dollie photostory right now… but no camera and doll to do that with argh. maybe i’d watch their One Life, One Death Cut Up later. (or maybe do a marathon of all of Masa’s plays. idk. depends.)

5. so torn among finally e-mailing out some questions, looking through Canadian schools (in connection to #3), looking at some keitai, finally making my Multiply Masa-themed, finally deleting my old whitebook blog due to the spam infestation and just transferring the contents over to this (but unfortunately, not the comments ;^;)… as you can see, my sense of concentration on one thing is so always in question =___^;;.

6. finally, i think this is dried up! from being included in the laundry:

i think he feels so clean now (笑). that’s with Trowa at the side, minus the front hair due to my cousin’s son. i’ll do something about that in the future.

7. actually testing right now if that watermark image plugin would work…

8. Canon… why do you do this to me >o<….

(when it comes to cameras/video cameras, i am a Canon whore — starting with owning a XL1 ^^;;. but when it comes to built in cameras in phones, i go for Sony Ericsson but i think that’s about to change aljdlfjdslfjdlklsk.)

9.  it’s actually so amusing how Baba connects/disconnects himself from Tina. like, how he would talk/refer to himself as Tina… but no XD. confusing, much? nevertheless, he surely looks so hot and priceless as Tina XDD. like… guhh.

i’m really glad that he got to work with older people… he would surely learn from that kind of experience. i loved specially when they went on dork mode… i love that kind of pics XDDD (and i feel so tempted to buy myself a Polaroid too aldskjfldsjlsd).

i feel specially fond of 藤林美沙, who played Maria (the girl beside Baba). because she looks like one of my favorite older cousins^___^.

and… wow. that play is already over??? …yay?(!!! XDDDD) it felt like… so long overdue already XDDDD.

10. (connected maybe to #9) i’ll talk about some keitai. and some magazines. maybe. later.

11. it’s too hot ;^;…

this… honestly really depressed me.

that he is now referred to as a “was”…

it’s during these times, that i actually wonder — how much life do you have to live before you die? (苦笑)

it’s actually also during these times that i’m honestly afraid to live.

he is the best rapper in the country, having accomplished much, collaborated much, created much, experienced much (including getting arrested for apparently having some dope, etc.)… i think he has already lived and experienced his life to the fullest. but i didn’t think he would have just ended there.

i remember then that certain anecdote when as a “challenge” for a certain noontime show that he’s a mainstay in, the camera had to follow him ala reality show. that he was a video game addict with his very very young kid, cooked pancakes and walked the dogs as exercise in the morning, and his daughter complaining that they were going to be late for her school. it’s all too normal, and then suddenly… gone.

and to think that as a project for my uni class I had interviewed one of his friends and apparent photography mentor too. to have been indirectly reached through one of his friends…

and i had known it from an sms by one of my Laeir-mates too, having just woke up. and she described that she had the goosebumps learning about it. (i did too)

his last blog post (so apparently we have the same online comm too). it’s like that girl all over again — that i only knew from common circles had died, and me seeing her website posthumously that recounts her love for Luna Sea and other jrock. and apparently, not surprisingly, Luna Sea’s I For You became her funeral song. i wonder if it’s still there…? or if it had been defunct-ed like its host geocities(?).

regardless. you would be more than a previous website presence now. for you’ll forever remain in our memories, even without your so popular songs. and you’ll forever be my secret inspiration.

peace, yo.

(i would have wanted to talk about some keitai today, but this really saddened me… )

so i forced myself once again to wake up to the heat, thinking that i still have much to do (like continue pestering the post office), and i find this:

omglajfldsjfldsjfldsflkjljXDDDD!

comments:
1. the book’s so… spoilerish^__=;;
2. …suddenly i want the pamphlet >.<;; (aka: i reserve my comment on the contents)
3. …once again, it’s like Hijiri never existed ;^;.
4. 2-sword Masa… is so kick-ass. (and he has this crazy hair thing going on. i still have to decide if i really like it, though his pic of it in Hero Vision is ♥. but it’s 1 point for being pretty Fierce♥™)

…i still have to watch it^^;;.

and it’s the release of Masa’s very first album today ^0^/! (i know it doesn’t have Two of Us. but i know i can’t have everything. the video compilation is ♥ enough. omg i haven’t paid yet alkdjsfljsdlfjdslfjldsl)

( P.S. I DON’T WANT TO GO TO CANADA. PERIOD. )

…actually, just got back last Monday, on the 23rd (or was it the 24th already back then?? night trip^^;; aaah no clouds!)

but i feel so disoriented the whole week… tired still! like, my limbs and parts of my body are still aching a bit, even after a massage. also, the extreme temperature change from the biting cold of Japan back to the scorching heat here… argh. like… not enough sleep could bring back my energy ;O;! had been late to work constantly this week due to that ;O;…!

i love and miss the cold in japan;^;. i feel like my whole being is still back in Japan! one week seems too short ;O;!

and:

askfjdksfjdlskjflds why did it get this many ahaha^^;;; (too heavy too! that i was forced to carry back 2 luggages, alone.)

notes:

1. wahhh i finally got Kizumomo *____*
2. wahhh i finally got Fabrica Theologiae *____*!
3. AVARUS ^O^.
4. i finally got Masa’s first photobook… with signature alsdjflsjfldsfjl (much thanks to Sally who recommended to me Kbooks!)
5. I FINALLY HAVE THE DL5 PAMPHLET OMG D1 MARRIAGE PIC ALSDKDFJLDSJFLDSJFXDDDDDDD

it’s plenty of “finally”s, actually^^;;! i would have bought more, but… money… *cringe*

…i finally understand more clearly now how the purchasing power of currencies work ^^;;

also, a long overdue gift from my friend Aya!:

OMGOMGOMG ;O;! THANK YOU VERY VERY MUCH! i’m really so sorry i actually wasn’t able to give anything to you and even tired you up having to accompany me and being called at all the time the whole trip (and having to assist me even with the sudden UTI attack), BUT I’LL REALLY MAKE IT UP TO YOU, I SWEAR. ONE DAY…!

i want to go back to Japan! *cries* but it seems impossible to be on sakura season now…! i have this… issue with amortizations argh X__x.

but the Japan trip… was so worth it! ALSO, SEEING MASA IN THE FLESH AND BEING JUST PRACTICALLY 2 STEPS AWAY FROM HIM… ALSDFLKDJSLFJSDL. BEST EXPERIENCE EVER, I COULDN’T DESCRIBE. LIKE… ALDJSLFDSJFLSDJFLDSJLDS *really incoherent!*

I’LL GO BACK TO JAPAN I SWEAR. AND TOUCH MASA AT THAT TIME. AHAHA.

also, ALTAR BOYZ IS ACTUALLY THE BEST PLAY I EVER SEEN^o^! i really couldn’t recommend it enough, and i really couldn’t get over it >o<;;! it’s actually the best ever experience in my life — all in one package and full of song and dance! one said that they’re going to do a re-run of it again at Fall next year… omg I WANT TO GO BACK AND WATCH IT AGAIN alfjlsdfsldjfdsldj! <—like, i’m so obsessed already! ahahaha. hopefully it would be the same cast, and the same kind of venue (to Shinjuku FACE)! Like… so close and personal adlkfkldsfhskdkds, even if Masa doesn’t feel like it’s a “theater” ahaha X.x;;; (and, yay, Fall! my season^O^! hopefully, i’ll also experience extensive snow by then! i only experienced a one-day flash snow in Japan)

i want to say some more, but i’m tired again X___x;;.

i realize too that it’s already March! and… good excuse to change the calendar too (though… i would really miss the calligraphy one…!):

adsjfldsjfldsjfldsfjkd. Masa. FISHING. aww…..!

sleeping again now X.x;;…!