blackbook

for some reason i have this compulsion to watch Clint Eastwood’s Gran Torino. hm.

a few days ago

i realize there’s this little place i always frequent, when i’m tired and hungry but i don’t want to eat rice. and they serve this! classic hot almost tasteless dough and hot chocolate syrup… yum*____*. and at a good day like that time, i ate all the rays of this sunburst. but ended up not being able to eat the center anymore XD (took it to the office).

and that night

bean cake! with WALNUTS too *____*aldsjflsdjflsdfjlds. nice office snack, lasted me for a good 3 nights, perhaps. and its lucky~~~ ah… it’s empty lol.

but… aksldjflkdsfkldsj grr SMJ. for not giving shipping details like exact timeframe and their contact details and when it was actually sent… IF it was sent. and for late replying to emails too. and, can’t they just answer my questions directly??? AND THEY HAVE MY MASA TICKETS ASLFJDKGJDLFJSLDSK! 17 is the playdate! ARGH! grr, you FAIL >=c! and most likely would foil our plans to go around Nakano before the show at the 17th because we have to sit around fretting on tickets we don’t have yet! >___<!!!

pls pray that we would get the tickets at the 16th. or 17th morning. how the hell does overnight EMS work in Japan anyway?? do stuff really arrive on time before 5pm??? i guess SMJ is not really reliable for rush things, even if they claim overnight shipping =(.

so that i could give this

to Masa. the drama behind this gift-giving is actually… “what do you give to a person who has everything??!?“. XD;;;. i realize Masa is truly one lucky guy (i wish i had these much fans, so i could be given gifts i want/even if i don’t ask for it ahaha. and yes the psychedelic bag is intentional).

so pls pray for me for a safe trip! this is my first time flying, actually. because… it would really be a bummer/anticlimactic if plane just crashes or burns or we get snakes in there. if tragedy please contact my family and tell them my funeral song should be Guns N’ Roses’ November Rain. toned-down rearrangement is ok. because i understand it would be weird if the chant part’s included XD. and maybe some black, blue, and red roses too… <–no i’m not thinking of this!

and as much as i want to bring you, Toru, you’re too heavy >.< ! someday, when i’m richer and more confident flying. sorry…!

this long post is long because i’m really worried. because i’ll be gone for 5 days (developing pictures and going to work immediately included!). unless somewhere there lends his internet connection XD.

I’M FUCKING GOING TO JAPAN.

XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!

“Gud pm. May n0w pick ur pasport fr0m 9am-4:30pm Monday to Friday & Sat. 9am-11:30am. Kindly txbk ur c0mplete name “XXX INC.”

what what? have i been approved or what? what what WHAT D:???

*dreading tomorrow… frets*

because everybody seems to be doing it. and i’m not supposed to sleep (because i might oversleep again, and a taxi to rush to work is expensive =___=;;; *in cold turkey mode*).

( this is just the first layer… )

to Irei… er… Nei XD. finally met you omg *o*!

last weekend, i’m so happy ;__^~~~~

i finally have someone to fanmode with…!

and it’s really been fun ^o^…!

( Puri! )

2 days ago:

finally X3! um… looks… authentic @___@;;;…????

L thinks i’m made of fail though. because aside from having to deal with the certification period on the new account i’ve been assigned to (read: if i don’t pass, i lose my job @___@;;), I had to run and rush my Japanese visa for the remaining 7 days.

Technically 2 weeks, but the Japanese embassy doesn’t work on Wednesdays and on weekends for some reason (so actually only 4 days of work a week… lucky bastards), and i can only pass the complete papers this upcoming Monday morning. so much for the big deal on the differences of being a tourist compared to being someone who has relatives there >__>.

my friend wasn’t able to receive her missing paperwork in time, thus i was forced to ask for help for my aunt in Saitama. =___=;;;. my parents though were strangely supportive which makes me suspicious =___=;;;…

generally, i feel so messed up=___=;;. and tired. i’m kind of regretting certain things i had to wait for, but in the end never came…

i want to write some more. but i forgot @__@;;.

i’m going to meet nei today…?