omg. i won this. i can’t believe it:
just narrowly. like… only by $.50 XD. leaving it 2 hours before auction end to fend for itself, because i had to go to work.
i always hated auctions because of this, the unpredictability of it all. add to that, i am really unlucky when it comes to chance things. maybe winning this is a sign of a start of good fortune this year…? XDDD. i had always wanted him~~~~
…had to make sure right after that he’s not a bootleg though. good thing the seller is very patient and immediately emailed me what i asked for:
weeelll…. it does look authentic, as further elaborated here. i mean, i did see a bootleg L myself previously — anyone with a critical eye actually could discern the difference between good paintjob/worksmanship and one that seems “rushed”.
…eh. but i’ll never really know unless i do receive it. so i took the chance nevertheless=___=;;;.
now… to feel jittery again in waiting…! (and from here on, i think i would only be able to buy another 1-2 items before i really stop to save for Japan on Feb. argh, Altar Boys ~__~;;;. i really just want to say fuck it and just refund the money and book a hotel instead and watch it alone now.
ok! so it had been final —i was transferred to that other account.
outweighing my feeling of beleaguered-ness is actually the nostalgia of being near, yet so far now, from the people i previously worked with in that account and came to love. the memories had been so good…
hell, i couldn’t even meet up with my Laeir-mate in that same building *humorless laugh*.
tonight, re-training starts. dammit, i don’t know the hell anything about the product (only i had experienced the product first-hand before and it broke down on me too early @___@;;;), but at least this is not a financial account and my salary is still the same or else i’d really balk. (i wish there was a chance to make it much higher though…! like in my previous account, where it just goes “surprise surprise!” everytime alskdjfldsfjsldkjf)
i just have to clarify the terms of my new contract though… if this is technically another “year”-term in my contract, or if i would still retain the remaining 4 months in my contract before i could have the right to be able to decide to renew the contract or totally quit the company i feel tempted really in quitting, but i would certainly need the money still for some stuff >.<.
at least… i still feel kinda relaxed now…! actually, i kind of have “the license” to relax more now for at least a month, as the job takes into consideration that we’re still newbies XDDD.
…though not that relaxed because it seems that my friend in Japan lost all her identification through a lost bag, thus not being able to claim the money for the tickets for Altar Boyz. and i see that the tickets are selling out fast as opening date approaches… >___<… WAH!
the melancholy, luckily, was broken by this arrival today:
finally!
…just a simple sticky print though. not “embossed” or something… i dunno the term as i expected to Be, but its ok! finally now have the chance to show off my EVA fanmode XDDD.
also re-reading that latest fic at reposte. Niou the tanuki and his keeper. alskdfjdsjfsdlfjlsdkf. that site is really THE EPICNESS =33333.
i dunno what the hell’s happening that the Tetsu rip keeps on not syncing audio. hmm =___=;;;…
wishlist, the ultimate —>
…omaigaddo 0___0.
how in the world had i wanted this much..???!??
(my bjd list is not actually fully included here haha X__x. and all those books i want. as you can see, only commonality is i love artsy-type movies —specially Wong Kar-wai’s —, Masa, gothic/punkish fashion and accessories, artbooks/photobooks, manga, and anime figures. um… @___@;;;;….)
what mainly makes me go aldksjflsdjfldsjkfkldsk in this list though is Ashes of Time REDUX. as in REDUX omg. with some added scenes, slightly edited, and with Yo Yo Ma music. alsdkfjdsflkdsjfkldsfj. so this means i have to buy the original sucky 1st-release dvd version then??? for comparison purposes… (yes, i could get crazy like that over Wong Kar-wai’s work..! alsdjfldjflsfldl;) i actually have a vcd… or a vhs copy?? (for bragging rights that i have the original sucky Ashes of Time dvd and the Redux version of the dvd alsdkjflkdsjflkdsfjdslk??? hahahaXD. for some reason everyone’s saying its original dvd release was sucky…).
<— i had actually long sworn to myself since film school days that i would collect all of Wong Kar-wai’s films alksdfdslkfjlkdsjflk.
(when i looked back at the past year, i discovered i got 30 out of 125 items in the initial wishlist. um. yeah. *dies* gotta cut back on spending @___@;;;;;;;…)
i actually had a nightmare earlier.
it consisted of the same text messages on my keitai, basically me being “all figured out” by certain people.
“all figured out” is not exactly what you would think it is literally. it is… ah… *can’t find the words*
it was enough to keep me awake with my heart pounding.
but i fell asleep again a little while after that >.>;;;.
just got the news today from my immediate boss that i’m about to be kicked out from my current account…
…and they’re planning to transfer me to another account.
( quite long rambling on how i think i’m about to be laid off @___@;; )
(and, i’m officially back! hahahahahaXDDD. actually my subscription’s been back for… a 1-2 days already…? but so tired from work i’m not able to do anything but check my lj flist and emails…)
last batch of tiems from last year. everything had already arrived, except that Seele shirt:
mags arrived XDDD. rather disappointed at the newsprint, not glossy quality area of Ba-chon and Masa’s sections at the Koi-men, but at least they’re colored well and there’s Shirota Yuu XDD.
and my Avarus and Visual Brush and PatiAct arrived alsfjdlsfjsdlfk. omg EPICNESS. though, initially i was all grr! when a Margaret tankoubon arrived instead of the December Avarus (may have missed all freebies if there are any ;^;)
can die and go to heaven and back actually by just seeing PatiAct XDDDD.
and, guess what XD:
and… comment. OK GOODCOME so you decided to be an ALL-MATTE magazine then?? are the days of glossy magazine pictures already gone?? i dunno maybe i felt kind of ripped off at all the matte pages hahaha X__x;;;… i hope HOMME will not follow… damn, the economy must be really that bad…!
Stage Actors is matte too ;^;. i’m starting to think they also went matte because glossy… tends to stick together and attract dust easily? but… the amount of Masa and Baba pics here are priceless. yeah, you can also die and go to heaven and back with this XDDDD.
random image dump from everything. which includes silly/sexy/cute/wtf/OMG YASUKA???pics:
( this is just the first layer… )
…please bear with me for a while-__^;;… as i haven't had my real site renewed yet! *flails helplessly*
when we get older, we can't help but notice things. it's true… when they said that with puberty comes "awareness". and with that, even the things we don't want to see, "the past" of others we wouldn't want to associate with, makes themselves known… and, no matter how we try, unwittingly affect us.
so no matter how we try to walk our way and as long as possible create a protective bubble around ourselves, circumstances and egos just poke in…?? like dust or lint, even microscopic, sticking to a plastic balloon… it's just not as simple as a small kid playing with any kid he sees anymore…
wah. admittedly, i do hate the feeling^^;;;. sorry if this does not make sense, lol^^;;…?
and, not connected. noticed from two days ago, my glasses:
( do you notice what's wrong with it XDD?? + eyecandy that makes me wonder... )
first alcohol of the year XDD i know i’ll pay for this later at work aslkdjfdsfjsdlj
happy new year again!
