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so the clinic yesterday at work didn’t send me home though i had a temperature of 37 and though i was really feeling that bad…

so yesterday after going home and doing a bit of grocery i really felt dizzy that i had someone at home fetch me in the store @__x;;;.

agghh… so the whole day i was only lying down and sleeping and feverish and coughing with that massive headache going on…

…i just cannot lie to that clinic, ne. *bitter laugh*

bad thing is, i wasn’t able to go to my friend’s birthday party though i had long promised i would go, and do the laundry.

i “woke up” around 11pm last night (the nocturnal person i am), and fell in and out of sleep again around 2am or so. i think i just woke up to eat a little dinner and check some e-mails @__x;;;.

ah…! i’m not supposed to get sick at this time of the month…! (and it’s surely not needed as of this time! i cannot afford absences in my job >.<…!) my flu schedule is usually… around the end of march to may — the time when there’s extreme temperature change.

the world… is really going weird ne.

EDIT: i dreamed about Irei last night. the dream was… uh… ^^;;… (i thought Irei was Pisces. but he was actually an Aquarius. asldkfdkhdfdhj…! the dream involved a lot of fishes, not the same choice of music…)

OMG my Good☆Come8 arrived today XDDD!:

Gukkamu8 pwns so seriously. AS IN SERIOUSLY. and you know this going to be a long post and i’m not cutting it XDDD. 8 is really my lucky number…

1. alskdfhdksfhjdk i’m so pwned over the fact that Sato Takeru is almost the same height as Sakurada Doori, if not the same. wtf! Sakurada Doori growing up that fast 0___0…!

2.
once again i want to put a heart between themXD♥

3.
kazuki with a plushie XDD. i want a Neko Ramen figure alsldkfdskgllkl.

shinya-コマ：
[ Kazuki: ...give me money, please...? ]
[ Neko Ramen: NO. ]

…i fail at tsukkomi, i know =___=;;…

4.
kazuki-chan again and Daizo… (oh THANK YOU OMG gukkamu for the TWO servings of Kazuki XDDD! see that GORGEOUS body sculpted by kick-boxing?? =3!

…and oooh… so this is Daizo ^^;;… sorry, i really don’t know him…! *dies*)

5.
…whenever i see this boy (Kanata Hongo), i really feel like crying. because i feel so PROUD. yeah, like i’m his mother or something hahaha. because HE HAD GROWN UP SO MUCH. SO FAST ;__^! like, back then, he was this so cute pouty little boy playing as the young Gackt at Moon Child… and still quite shortie compared to all his “sempai” at the CinePuri…

now he’s so so tall and so ikemen alsdhfdlskfkdsfj. maybe as tall as Doori. i wonder why he would not reprise his role as Ryoma??? but this time on stage (aka musical)?? maybe he couldn’t sing…?? ^^;;;

6.
[ "We're going to our honeymoon♥...!" ] …uh. no. XD.

…Masa kills me with that smile everytime *–>actually reduced to goo right now*. and Ba-chon’s hair is really not that bad now! it’s longer XDD.

7.
i really fall for boys who look so beautiful when they’re sleeping. like… “awwww♥~~~” (i remember one of my kouhais… XD… too bad i didn’t take a keitai pic of him back then XDDD… and… Masa’s shoulders and collarbones… alskdfhdslkfhdsfjlk….*once again reduced to brain goo*)

8.
shinya-コマ：
[ Ba-chon: ... ]
[ Masa: .... ]
[ Ba-chon: (suddenly blurts out) ...Will you marry me??? ]
[ Masa: 0__0! ]

…several pages later, they’re at the wall of some church, holding hands while doing peace signs. XD. (<–yes this is true! not shinya-コマ! XDDD! )

9.
this is one unexpectedly gorgeous couple *____*.

…are they really that close though? as in friends-friends? because… Fufu seems so… unreachable^^;;. like, too much beauty, that he’s sooo unreachable like a god…

Watanabe Daisuke *___*♥♥♥. please stay as gorgeous as you are… (even when you smile, you’re still so gorgeous… THAT’s rare 0__0! no crooked teeth…?)

and I think i have a new-found respect for Fufu now. ( HE CAN SMILE. A BIG SMILE. OMG 0___0! )

10.
the cosplay that was SO bound to happen… GENKI AS LELOUCH XDD!

11.
Hiroki Suzuki looks so transformed 0___0! (<–is he different from… Suzuki Hiroki..?? alsdjfdsfjsdk)

12. …once again, Tomo looks like a geisha girl. and is that Konii…??

be doing lots of e-mails now >.<…! ah! i haven’t checked out my Homme 3 yet! and Kato Keisuke is seriously convincing me to buy Homme 4. his latest pic really reminds me of Wallace Huo. argh.

Masa, AMEN. you’re really my inspiration ;^;… (i just wish though my work is something i love, like you currently do! but… one day…! *determined!*)

the journey is a destination in itself (kind of… several stopovers XD!)! and the journey is really more important than the destination. and i’m glad he’s enjoying the journey as well! but i hope he still takes care of himself and not fall sick!

…i really wish i could tell him all these, but my japanese is poor ;^;.. (ps..nice hair too ^o^!)

ah… there’s still the elimination for the Nationals arc for the myu anyway… isn’t altarboyz ok enough??? XDDD

and that cap is very familiar askfhkdsfkdsjl.

my comment today…

currently, i also have a new goal.

and it involves: February, lots of money, Altar Boyz, and JAPAN.

will i be able to do it???

(i think it would involve sacrificing Pado and the Canon 40D though ;^;…)

(doesn’t help that i see new iPicture and Wild Strawberry merchandise *dies*. my next paycheck’s doomed again =__=;;…)

http://www.altarboyz.jp/

considering my fetish for crosses (specially when they’re silver), satire (even Catholic, yes), and MASA.

and alsfdsklfhdkjdk do their poses really have to be like that XDDD???

I WANT TO WATCH THIS!!

(maybe i should start working on that passport now. and *save up!save up!*. and The Grand Plan to go to Japan, even for 1-2 days. aldksfrhdskfhdsj)

received my Crescent Shop items today omg XDDDDD. my Silver head arrived too!

…i really wondered why it was so big…

omg i finally have a piece of Masa! and it’s also silver! aslkfdksfhsdkl:

my only pet peeve on this though is there is some slight tarnishing on the skull.. er… i’m kind of suspicious now that this is not made of real silver but actually plated… and i’m afraid to dip it in the silver solution i currently have here >.<;;;…

i was kind of aww… that i didn’t seem to get the free limited photos that is supposed to come with a purchase of one accessory, but…

do you see those two WS Masa promotional photos there??? askdlfhsdkfhds it was even bigger than the Masa Rec photo that came with the 1st Live Pamphlet (which is, OMG IT’S SUCH A BIG PAMPHLET EVEN BIGGER THAN THE HOMME 0__0! *didn’t really expect this*) XDDD.

back to the Masa Rec photo and those WS. compared to the Masa Rec photo which looks obviously like a pressed thing (Masa’s sig on printout), the WS SIGNATURES LOOK AUTHENTIC. i mean, i was like trying to feel the silver marker on the picture, and certainly the slight nuances of the differences of the marker was evident. even the penmanship and the slight slip or marker is evident.

OMG I THINK I GOT AUTHENTIC MASA SIGNATURE. AND ON TWO PICS. OMG. i actually expected any signature to come from my WS DVD box package, but no. i think i love silver marker now XDDD.

( this is just the first layer… )

omfg my Crescent Shop package is already in my country XDDDD!

but still i dread… CUSTOMS!

just hoping the red tape won’t reach me >__<…

…but…! what happened to my Silver head ;^;… it stopped tracking at USPS already…! i’m worried…!

i feel like doing Karatani-san’s pose now X__X;;…

ah… math is weak! i have estimated my finances wrong again! suddenly my payment for that skeleton is lacking a few dollars X__x…

…and i also have to go　ごめん～～～！again on the Sard >.<… i feel ashamed asking repeatedly from Soom already…!

but still! finally! GoodCome8, here I come~~~!

…that sounds so wrong, haha x.^… then for the first time I see that KatoxSeto pic at GC7 too asldkfhdslfkdsnfj… how i wish i have that enough money to buy GC every month >.<…!

DL4 Pamphlet, here I come~~~! now all I need is the DL5 Pamphlet, and I can finally rest ;^;~~~

but still i’m nervous… this is my first time dealing with anyone from Canada X__x…! and my wounds from dealing with non-Asians are still fresh…

…but I have to learn to trust! and to continue taking risk! this is the way to live my life!

and i find i couldn’t live it any other way…

finally added the links of the blogs i also watch. nifty eh XD? i kind of want to work on its placing on my layout though.. but somehow… there is no feature of it in my admin page X.x…

also set up my last.fm page though i was really resisting tho… haha. let’s see how it works with LJ.

… please check it out^.^! wtf Buck-Tick’s on the very top??? hahaha XD i’m so proud~~~ kind of overrun my DeG already though = ( …

somehow i feel so accomplished banning all those names i want to ban in LJ. ah… sometimes it’s really good to be a bitch for at least one time?? not holding back anger and not caring for once… so much for commenting =P… too bad LJ though doesn’t have the feature to ban certain people in comms though… HA XD.

my whole body still hurts… and there’s work tonight ;^;…

oftentimes, i don’t like sugar with my meat >.<…

i… couldn’t view Shindo Gaku’s new page >.<…???

Kazuki also apparently posted about his encounter with Masa. ahaha… drinking… ^^;;;

my little cousin gave me a piece of marshmallow today! she’s so sweet! and i’m so happy ;__^…

XDDD!:

never have i imagined that these two hot men will actually be TOGETHER XDD. even more, in A PICTURE! thank goodness Masa’s enthusiasm in watching lives… but why choose of all days to scale down your pic Masa >.<…

also… i feel like i’m liking Karatani Satoshi more XDD..!

and oh my, he’s 34…?? guess i’m right that he looks old^^;;… but on certain angles he looks hot! yes! more like Atsushi-level XDDD. he wouldn’t be Kubota in the first place if he wasn’t though i still think he looks old for the character… but the WA bromides actually make up for it XDD. i was actually thinking of a cross-fic of him with Genki earlier haha. maybe, one day, him and Masa will cross paths? as they both work on the stage…

Axle’s site has been updated too. nifty*___*~~~ (nifty header for [11人いる!] too…! Genki again as guest!) *thinks of dp:schism site that needs to be updated… badly… but… no scanner ;^;…*

i’m wondering though why the link for PEACEMAKER had been removed? (is that THE Peacemaker Kurogane? and is that Banana Fish -THE- BANANA FISH i’ve long wanted to read…?? *kicking self on why that Banana Fish was never bought when it was lying simply on one comic store for several months…*

…i want to buy that PEACEMAKER book asldkfhdsklfhj.

i want to add some additional links here…! to the celebrity blogs i also watch haha. i may add that in the future…

also, though i want to apologize for previous post, i feel like i don’t want to. i don’t have to. though people may think it’s whining/drama/ranting that does not concern them… i will still write whatever the hell i want (why even skim over it in the first place=/??). i have the right to. specially when i’m on that mood. HA XD. *<–bitch mode, here*

if you feel something very important, even though people wouldn’t like to hear it, say it. because that is your feeling, and you have as much right as everyone else to express your feeling!

(and you have every right to feel hurt/sad/offended/anything if people ridicules/reacts negatively to what you say instead of sympathizing, as you have every right of feeling that way as much as they have the right to react negatively!

by exposing your thoughts, you have automatically exposed yourself to any kind of feedback, so… but never be afraid! it’s ok to feel, and, if well-thought upon and applicable, take action…!)