blackbook

i ate marshmallow and some instant noodles to start the day lol. it was not just a “marshmallow”, it was a “maaaaarshmaaaaaaaaaaaallooooooooooooow”. because it was really long lol! and “to start the day” because i have this habit of getting really hungry when 12am and 3am comes, that sometimes i couldn’t help but really wake up during that time whatever it takes and just that because i couldn’t cook full-blown meals for the life of me (started eating at 3am today actually, because 12am i was drowsy and slept for a while!). doesn’t help either that Masa’s talking about food… i wanna try shabu-shabu! i saw a shabu-shabu restaurant this weekend! but it was “Mini Shabu-Shabu” so i don’t have an idea how “mini” it is ^^;;;)

i also managed to do most of the laundry today *quite accomplished*

also! i think this is my final wishlist! by order in which they’re supposed to be bought!:

…well, i hope so. haha ^^;;; i just want Flood’s body too, in white skin, and poor Spinel pushed way back down. i added the Silver there because i had decided i really want to see for myself if he would BE my Kim though deep in my heart i already have a feeling he would be… my poor Moon =(.

my new DoA sig as well:

ah how i wish i had lots of money to just complete this thing.

my MU download keeps on dying too. ugh. oh it’s working a bit finer now.

i’ll be contacting Crescent Shop today, and Soom too. maybe bargain with Soom moving my next layaway schedule to the end of July? because i’ll be buying some Ba-chon travelogue and DL5 dvd heehee. i wish Soom will allow me… *cross fingers*

i’m also still upset about… yes, you already know (read back). being at the mercy of other people… i never liked that feeling -___-.

not so edit: my sabotenda i finally picked up from my post office today. OF COURSE. THIS ALSO. MEANS WAR >= ( :


my Ryo biyou no karte is the last time i’ll ever use the non-registered airmail service. i swear. dammit it just sunk to me again that those girls actually sent out the airmail non-registered. grr >= (.

…i hope this is the first and last time i’d ever wage war against anybody on LJ. no matter how diplomatic it would sound to be.

i didn’t want to term it as a “war”, but technically this feels like i’m about to go into a very long battle >__<. those girls aren’t e-mailing yet (on vacation), and i’m getting even more upset by the day. i just want this solved… though it might mean i would just get a refund and not get the Rikkai photosets after all well i fucking hope for a refund at least >.<. so much for waiting, and trusting those girls’ claimed reputation in handling those type of orders “efficiently”. even though i heard ordinary airmail has a disclaimer that it would possibly get lost (though i really swear i didn’t see any kind of disclaimer on the preorder post), OF COURSE I WOULD STILL DAMN STRUGGLE — its my friggin $96 after all >= (.

and this had been my first time doing this too. i hate feeling this fucked…

and as much as i want to keep this between me and the sellers (that’s why i even suggested the e-mail correspondence in the first place), i really can’t help but think about murderous rebuttals and thoughts in my head when worst comes to worst…

i hate conflict, but i still damn know when to fight for my right.

…i also better stop before i get anymore angry than i already am…

sorry if my post sounds so schizo. i’m starting to go Seth-ish. i’m just really pretty upset lately. must be lack of nutrition too >_>.

ugh… no status yet on that Rikkai photoset =___=. the girl’s not e-mailing me yet. seems like they’re still both happily in vacation while i’m here royally pissed off. i don’t know if they’ll just ignore me, or send my money back, or send their own copy of the full Rikkai photoset as replacement instead. really hoping for the latter.

i really want to hope that my photoset is not lost, but with the way things are going… >___<. dammit i read somewhere too that the photosets of a certain girl’s from UK arrived just two weeks after they sent it, so i fucking couldn’t believe this when i’m just from Asia myself…!!!!

anyway, as of the seemingly fake Nendroid i saw yesterday… un! i think i definitely saw one! Goodsmile has released detail of it.

i think i’ll try buying directly from Goodsmile from Crescent shop instead? i don’t have money yet ugh. somehow preferably with the DL5 and Ba-chon’s travelogue dvd…

and yesterday before going to sleep i finally opened my L ~Change the World~ and my Cool-B mag. opened up Shiki’s box too and listened to the cd inside heehee:

the photos inside which were used as posters?

the booklet with much detail (i’m afraid to try to understand it too much because i might get spoiled… haha. there was a timeline of … the days of L’s there XDD;;…

well, hello there, handsome XDDD (while i was surfing through the Cool B dvd and listening to the small drama cd bundled with this figure):


and because i just couldn’t resist (he’s that too perfect hahaha):

i couldn’t display him anywhere in my room though… not much space (and i hate the dirt). when my flat comes… yes. but that’s like… 2 years more to go =___=;;;…

and because i can be quite vain (but i accept that i’m not photogenic… haha XDD):

i feel so schizo right now. i’m upset yet i write certain things down cheerfully.

but honestly, i feel really cranky and unstable deep inside. i feel impatient. i want that girl to mail me paperwork related to that Rikkai photoset (surely, they couldn’t have just thrown away their stubs from the post office????). because dammit i couldn’t just go up to Customs without paperwork to prove that some fucking package from Japan did arrive for me. maybe i should play some Guildwars. or sleep =___=;;. or try continuing cleaning my room.

i finally saw a G900 today. omg so thin. so perfect. and asdfgjldfghslalskldksdl so expensive >.<. can’t afford it within four months time, as i’m prioritizing my Sard first >.<.

i’d more likely sell my S700i though its beyond selling, really. with all the chipping casing. the salespersons couldn’t accept it anymore for trade-in. or maybe, pawn it. though the money i’d get from that would only likely be 2 or 1% of the actual price lol.

i also saw the Nendoroid set of Death Note today. urgh, looks like a bootleg though, as i can practically see the rubber chipping off from the figures and the paintjob on the faces so poor. yes i’m quite anal like that but i couldn’t believe that the japan version is actually that. and the box doesn’t have its sheen too or maybe it’s just because of the dust.

and… guhh. i’m just angry pissed off ballistic frustrated at those girls i bought the Rikkai photosets from. the girl’s LJ reply was just… ugh.

so is this just like… “sorry, you lose, goodbye, game over. just say bye bye to your $96 already”.

WTF???!?!!

…i had really wanted to lash out, you know? but i’m that disgusted at the whole situation that i just shut down that tab with the LJ reply in it and refrained from replying again and practically went straight to canvas for a G900 right after work regardless of not having any sleep yet.

yes. i’m THAT annoyed. fear the wrath of a Libra.

and i really dread opening that LJ reply again. my reply might actually turn out… VERY unpleasant >.<. though i’m a little bit calmer now. but still… remembering it again and writing it down now, i’m starting to get furious again…

…EDIT: what i wrote:

can we continue talking about this through e-mail? just for more direct correspondence. please e-mail me at xxx@yahoo.com.

do you have at least a slip or paperwork from Tokyo post office as proof that the package was indeed delivered? by e-mail i could show you an example of what kind of paperwork so i hope we continue our conversation there. also, i will also need verification of my name and address which you sent the package to (and i wouldn’t want that posted here in LJ)

sorry if i seem so stubborn, but though i am still hoping that my package is not lost in the mail, i refuse to believe that there’s nothing we can do about this anymore =(.

i seriously had wanted to add that this is my first time EVER to lose any kind of airmail from Tokyo too >___<. i hate being one of the unfortunate statistics.

and there’s the news of Shirotan graduating from D-Boys too. though it was really coming, it’s still so sad = (. a bigger, but more uncertain, future.

damn it are there really no good news today at least???

so i was wondering… wtf came from japan?? ems??? and here i thought it was my Rikkai photosets already urggh:

wee, it’s my L ~Change the World~ XDDD! no bonus posters though or anything =___=;;;…

well, i’ll open this later XD… box is too thin too for a “complete set” too @___@;;;…

asdksfjslfjslhfslgsg so a Cool B mag is actually smaller than the box itself lol and i didn’t know Youji does lower eyelashes… all the scans online don’t do his actual pic justice XDDDD…

damn it this came even way before my Rikkai photosets too. had an LJ comment exchange again with one of those girls, and i’m really still upset >=( … again, I’M JUST FROM ASIA DAMMIT. AIRMAIL FROM WITHIN ASIA ISN’T SUPPOSED TO TAKE -THAT- LONG. (wtf, just look at JpQueen >__<!)

i feel like i’m getting used to my job. its seems… i dunno… easier everyday? better than the previous financial account i’ve been in. i never liked talking too frequently, but i guess i’m taking this as exercise for self-expression in spoken english^^;;. i just hope the higher-ups still let me stay even though i constantly fumble with words…

and my voice is still not cool and modulated. urgh.

anyway, i had been thinking of these since yesterday! i’m curious to how other people will answer, so i’d most likely tag people in LJ as well. but this is my take:

3 Personal Idols:
1. Shinya (of Dir en grey) (i had wanted to learn drums! and though he’s so thin like me, he does it so well! so it’s possible XDDD!)
2. Nakagauchi Masataka (this guy works so hard, and tries his hardest! there was this report about him fumbling one time during his first live, and it looked like the world had crumbled around him, but still he went on! and he was crying and thanking his fans at the end for cheering him on through it though the fumbling was a personal failure in his part… *____*. he’s really one of the most vibrant, most hard-working, most self-critical, most humble stars around! i admire those types of people! it just makes you want to hug him and cheer him on, “がんばって！”
3. Gackt (his life story is really an inspiration! i recommend reading his autobiography ^___^)
though currently, it’s a toss-up between Masa and Shinya at number 1. Masa certainly is my inspiration right now*___* and i had wanted to have a Minimee made of him too!

3 celebrity blogs i stalk:
1. Nakagauchi Masataka
2. Baba Tooru
3. Shirota Yuu (he’s quite a dork character! and considering his struggles to as a half-Spanish… really an inspiration!)
next on the list is actually Irei’s (starting to fall for this guy…), Shindo Gaku’s (this guy could just be so random and hilarious sometimes). sometimes Airu’s and Aiba’s (it’s really fun seeing Aiba trying to learn English XDDD).

3 artists i couldn’t delete from my Ipod:
1. Dir en grey
2. Plastic Tree
3. Gackt

3 myu teams i couldn’t get out of my system:
1. Rikkai (certainly!)
2. Rokkaku (these guys are just so silly and LOL, you can’t help but be drawn to them^^;;;)
3. Hyotei (1st cast! as in the one with Kazuki-sama in it^^;;)

3 things i want to learn the most:
1. play drums
2. cinematography (photography included. this is actually re-learning, because all i had seemed to absorb in my photography class was the magic of F16 on sunsets >.<)
3. 3D (a continuous learning process)

3 places overseas i want to go to the most:
1. Japan
2. Italy (it’s the structures, i say. THE STRUCTURES AND THE ART AND THE CLASSIQUENESS XDDDD)
3. Berlin

3 Most favorite activity:
1. Sleeping
2. Drawing
3. Doing anything I want at the moment

3 Least favorite activity:
1. Eating (i only eat when i’m hungry, which isn’t frequent^^;;. some people say i eat like a cat…)
2. Cleaning my room (i’m too meticulous. which makes the process too long >_>)
3. Doing what i’m “told” to do (e.g. being tagged along by my parents to shop with them @__@)

3 things i hate the most:
1. a certain phone call from… (this is a life issue thing…)
2. being forced to wake up (there is a gentle way of waking me up ne~~~)
3. being forced to do the things i don’t like/act around people

3 things i want the most right now:
1. my own flat
2. that Wild Strawberry necklace
3. my Rikkai photosets (i’m very frustrated about this as of the moment… who wouldn’t be???)

which reminds me… i’m very frustrated about that photoset. apparently the girls who sent it out doesn’t know where it already is. like, they just sent it out and were so assured we would get it. and to my dismay it isn’t registered air mail, it is simple air mail! which means no tracking!! omg this is like Jamie’s package all over again >___<. and considering japan is just a timezone away from my own country… we’re both in Asia! how the hell could they track this as they’ve promised???

it’s already been a month, if it hasn’t been already past that. one month is already too long…! i’m afraid it’s already lost. in fairness, sure, one half of the girls were so apologetic about it, saying that they’ll try to track it down once they get back from their vacation whatnot… WTF. how the hell could they track a simple air mail??? when simple air mail has no tracking option???

if sabotenda arrives even before those photosets, I’D CERTAINLY START FREAKING OUT. i already made some sort of ultimatum — if this month ends and still no photoset, i’d certainly pm those girls back and try my damn hardest to sound diplomatic.

i’m really not sure anymore those photosets would arrive. now i’m just expecting that they make it up to me. and that replacement better be good, or similar >__<. damn it.

i really couldn’t help but be angry, you know??? i really anticipated its arrival, thinking i have secured what is probably the last item i could see of the Rikkai boys, and it’s $96. who wouldn’t be frustrated???

*melting at Masa’s latest pic* i really like him when he smiles~~~ he has one of the sweetest, most infectious smiles ne??? makes me wanna kiss him haha

my Ryo no biyou shounen karte was shipped today XDDD!

…i’m tired. i woke up with my vision swimming and Atobe’s Boogie Woogie song in my head. it’s really not good that i’m practically eating only one meal a day, but i couldn’t help it because lunch is usually in the way of my sleeping time (and my body consciously skips lunch just to get more sleep). damn.

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…i really hate money. computing it is too complicated >.<.

i think i could only be able to buy that WS necklace after mid-july. and pay off this very late June amortization and the upcoming horror July amortization.

argh >.<. helpless.

also finally both some Good*Come magazines, that Ryo biyou no karte, and a Cool-B mag today. for myself, not for my dolls ha XD. i would have bought some Arena 37° Specials too but no more money (damn Amazon why are you so expensive >.<… and damn reminding me i have to buy that Fabrica Theologiae too…)

and i also need to get some sleep for work later =___=;;;….

just sharing pics of my Shiki figure and TnC PS2 which arrived yesterday =3! so this is IMAGE HEAVY (and shot only with a 2mp cellphone^^;;). and asdfdfgjdlgjdlglfkg… yey! i got the dogtag and the remix cd XDDDD:

( this is just the first layer… )