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now I know for sure… that I’m an Oshitari Yuushi fan XD.…actually, Oshitari x Atobe.  hehehe =P~~~

…like the rain that falls down to the earth.

yes, maybe it’s just another of those days.

though those days seems to be quite frequent recently…

it’s raining right now.

actually i’m happier when it rains. there are just too many sunny days that weren’t good at all in my memory.  for me, the drops of rain are like angels, just like the slight breeze you feel at night.

though maybe this day was an exception, a particular day that just dampened me down a little.

the day went so agonizingly slow.  too early to sleep, too early for anything, but also too late for everything else. ( this is just the first layer… )

if only they knew how much in a financial funk i am right now.but even if they knew, still they’ll pester me.  even more.

i’ve gotten to the point of beyond caring.

…but still how much I wish that I drank before they called…

but i’ll get through this.  i know i should. i will.  i am going to live the life i want and nobody is going to fucking stop me from getting there.

nice…it’s been long since i’ve last felt like this XD

finally, i think i wouldn’t drink again for a long long time…

(and makes this day fly by so fast.  whee!  that tomorrow it’s back to the battlefield of a bank again and pestering the CC service to just hurry the fuck up)

…i just realize how much i really hate hearts.

be changing the look of this theme soon.  just the look, not the layout.  i think the layout’s great, even though the spacing of the posts are too near.

and i like trees.

i’d probably put this on the widgets side… i have a bad habit of forgetting priorities >.< (most of the items here are actually things I wanted long ago, but kind of forgot XD)…

my wishlist now (removed all finished):

1. REDEMPTION the Moon
2. ZM Finishing Powder Spray (UV cut)
3. Mr.Super Clear Flat (GSI Creos)
4. ZM Acrylic Color Set (Basic)
5. ZM Face Painting Brush NY-01 & NY-03
6. ZM Cosmetic Pencil
7. ZM Shine Pearl (Pink)
8. Tamiya X-22 Gloss
9. Mr.Color Leveling Thinner (for airbrush)
10. Abadon + long black wig
11. Lawrence
12. a Kiln set
13. a Canon EOS 40D
14. a sewing machine
15. BRONZE Cathexis
16. Fabrica Theologiae
17. Exotique 2
18. a leathertool set
19. a mac pro or macbook pro
20. my own flat (my "Subaru flat"… see his at the X series)
21. a job i really love could bear and pays high sufficiently
22. clay (eiryuu~~!)
23. Dirge of Cerberus (the orig. Jap version)
24. study cinematography
25. my wishlist at Amazon
26. drumset (pref. a Zidjian)
27. a PS3
28. a French easel
29. Kata raincover and bag for my Canon cam
30. manual lens for my Canon cam
31. wide lens for my Canon cam
32. more money to publish a LAEIR project
33. money to study again in uni (if i pass XD)

oh my god… this needs a lot of money lol…

at least makes me feel inspired to work for something for myself…

Chibi Seme
Take Are you a Seme or an Uke? today!
Created with Rum and Monkey’s Personality Test Generator.

(i don’t quite like the picture tho…  even if it looks like kyo without makeup >.<)

btw…? the doll pics last post were from eluts.com =)…

let’s see if i can push this more…

my wishlist (removed those striked before):

1. clay (eiryuu~~!)
2. a mac pro or macbook pro
3. my own flat (my “Subaru flat”… see his at the X series)
4. Wild Adapter 4 & 5
5. Dirge of Cerberus (the orig. Jap version)
6. study cinematography
7. study 3D modelling and animation (a lifelong thing…)
8. study 2D animation (another lifelong thing…)
9. my wishlist at Amazon
10. a job i really love could bear and pays high sufficiently

    ( this is just the first layer… )