(and this week) is the anniversary of my trip to japan and watching this show ♥~~
wahhh… had it really been that long already XD??
with my current finances, i don’t think i could finance a trip to watch the new show this year >.<;; (unless there’s a miracle?? ahaha XD *crosses fingers for a miracle* and hopefully Rouma-san is back)
(but i’ll certainly join the Supporters’ Club one of these days XD)
and i really loved the memories~~~ not just of the show but of japan itself…
having been in japan… had sort of reaffirmed my goals in life. and i’m very thankful for that~~~ (ehh… i guess this is what typically happens when you’re alone and getting lost in trains most of the time in a far, unfamiliar place XD? but i think it felt a little different with japan… i sort of felt comfortable there♥ though it had been so cold back then ahaha)
reminds me, i haven’t finished my memoriam yet of japan =.=;;… (i really have to try picking that up again-.-;;)
i really want to go back >.<.
and hopefully, when i get back my understanding of the language is better, so i could converse better with my uncle and my cousin^^;;.
hopefully i could work out formally studying the language this year even with poor finances, a new job (finally! though i’m still on trainee-probie status^^;;), and school (if i get accepted at that new school, i would actually be working towards my 2nd bachelor’s degree^^;;;).
just need to balance my schedule and manage only 5 hours sleep everyday ohoho =.=;;;..?
They Don’t Care About Us by Michael Jackson, performed by The Dancing Inmates featuring Michael Jackson’s choreographer and backups.
wahh they’re really awesome*___*~~
Though I’m not that hardcore of a fan of Michael Jackson, I really respect him as an artist. And this is my most favorite Michael Jackson song, and I love its 2 video versions*___*~~.
So I was really excited when they planned out they will be dancing this song =D. The song is so fitting (like all the minorities of society) ~~ I think they really did it justice^___^.
So touching, for once was just a simple recreational mass exercise XD. B.Garcia, you’re the man~~~
This just makes me want to buy This Is It more XD.
today, my cousin said something about my grandmother wanting to give away my basset hound Tender and her kid. mainly because they do not bark (at strangers). and they feel that they’re too high maintenance (we have 2 other dogs here, not really ours =o=;; but left for safekeeping)
today somehow i also considered selling them off, as Tender had papers and all. though i do need money…
but even more than having money and my bit of frustration that a watchdog is instead wanted, is the desire for her to have a good home.
i honestly feel terrible about it.
basset hounds are really sweet and friendly, to the point that they’ll just randomly jump you their full weight when you’re crouched while doing laundry, and lick you with good measure too. and their weight and saliva is really… undescribable XD;;. like, being the thin stick i am i do get towed around by Tender at those few times i give her walks, specially when she’s in her usual curious mood (and my weight certainly has no match to her >.<;;;), and obedient. and she’s so well behaved when i give her a bath too (like she raises her leg for me when i have to clean her underside^^).
…somehow despite that it seems our hearts couldn’t meet that much though? (maybe it’s the saliva thing ahaha) i somehow blame myself for feeling this way…
i think it was to the point i haven’t been able to give much care and lots of love that is supposed to be given to someone of her breed. somehow the rest of the family is still scared by Tender too (again, maybe it’s the saliva and the randomly jumping thing when it’s her natural manner and what you’d actually love in a dog…)
sometimes, oftentimes, because i’m not around enough, at those few times that i look at her it somehow feels she’s looking back at me with too much sadness. or she’s just lying there too much. though she would acknowledge if i’m near, the intelligent sensitive dog she is. sometimes her eyes are even red. at those times, i really want to cry. like now.
my love, mostly because i’m the only one i think?, and because i’m not around often, is just not enough.
i really feel terrible.
it’s no secret i actually want a Siberian Husky. and i think i’m more of a cat person =o=;; (for them being quite independent). but then Tender, for all the times she’d been here, i can’t let go and i don’t want to let go.
but then i know deep in my heart she would be better taken care of by someone else, loved by someone else. and i know she would be better somewhere else. i know i have to let go.
…i really fail at being a friend （苦笑）.
i haven’t made a decision yet, though it’s more of leaning towards letting her go right now, and i already have an idea of who i could trust Tender with if that person would accept. ah… it’s actually her vet. hopefully, if i do decide, that she does go to a place where she’ll be loved and wanted by many people and not just by only one (like me). i honestly pray for it.
… i’m still feeling too depressed about it though >__<;;…
ah… got to find out now if that last phonebook chapter i read is really the last chapter so far akdsljflsdkjfljkf.
EDIT: apparently not akdsjflsdjflsdkjf.
… it’s quite sad though that there are no promises that the story would go further ;o;. nobody even knows what really happened to Matsushita-sensei… will the Heaven sphere story be ever finished? what about the story with Nagare??? i also hope the art AND content wouldn’t deviate that much from last chapter… (dreading specially at that “change of content” thing…)
… i’m honestly filled with dread =o=;;;.
i really love this series. i hope it just wouldn’t end abruptly. it’s so full of memories for me~~~ and i learned so much from its art~~~~
IT STILL HAS A FANBASE, argh. please just don’t look at Japan to determine if it would continue or not >.<…
we’re still waiting…
ah… my packages arrived today =D♥♥♥♥♥♥!
EDIT: ah… it’s only now that i’ve seen the last chapters and the Oriya sidestory…
… EHHH??? the art has changed DDDDD= ???? that much???
when i was about to rule out the Oriya sidestory change as intentional…
なぜ ；o；～～～～～～ （涙）
… ah >___<;;.
but still…! wouldn’t stop me from buying vol. 12! just really hope the art would slowly go back to the way it was and improve in the future alsjdljfldskjfskl!
both has dvds though it seems the Axle one’s sold out already. i honestly want to check out the Axle version more first. why aren’t they doing a dvd version of Wild Adapter though orz.
mainly fretting about the Nippon Export order right now >.<;; (if they did get me those 4 volumes of AVARUS or not…! it’s already in the country!). couldn’t finalize anything else until i see @__@;;
